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The
Autobiography of
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Chapter 2: Morehouse CollegeMy
call to the ministry was not a miraculous or supernatural something.
On the contrary it was an inner urge calling me to serve humanity.
I shall never forget the hardships that I had upon entering college, for though I had been one of the top students in high school, I was still reading at only an eighth-grade level. I went to college from the eleventh grade. I never went to the twelfth grade, and skipped another grade earlier, so I was a pretty young fellow at Morehouse. My days in college were very exciting ones. There was a free atmosphere at Morehouse, and it was there I had my first frank discussion on race. The professors were not caught up in the clutches of state funds and could teach what they wanted with academic freedom. They encouraged us in a positive quest for a solution to racial ills. I realized that nobody there was afraid. Important people came in to discuss the race problem rationally with us. When I went to Morehouse as a freshman in 1944, my concern for racial and economic justice was already substantial. During my student days I read Henry David Thoreau's essay "On Civil Disobedience" for the first time. Here, in this courageous New Englander's refusal to pay his taxes and his choice of jail rather than support a war that would spread slavery's territory into Mexico, I made my first contact with the theory of nonviolent resistance. Fascinated by the idea of refusing to cooperate with an evil system, I was so deeply moved that I reread the work several times. I became convinced that noncooperation with evil is as much a moral obligation as is cooperation with good. No other person has been more eloquent and passionate in getting this idea across than Henry David Thoreau. As a result of his writings and personal witness, we are the heirs of a legacy of creative protest. The teachings of Thoreau came alive in our civil rights movement; indeed, they are more alive than ever before. Whether expressed in a sit-in at lunch counters, a freedom ride into Mississippi, a peaceful protest in Albany, Georgia, a bus boycott in Montgomery, Alabama, these are outgrowths of Thoreau's insistence that evil must be resisted and that no moral man can patiently adjust to injustice.
As soon as I entered college, I started working with the organizations
that were trying to make racial justice a reality. The wholesome
relations we had in the Intercollegiate Council convinced me that
we had many white persons as allies, particularly among the younger
generation. I had been ready to resent the whole white race, but
as I got to see more of white people, my resentment was softened,
and a spirit of cooperation took its place. I was at the point where
I was deeply interested in political matters and social ills. I
could envision myself playing a part in breaking down the legal
barriers to Negro rights. "An inner urge calling me to
serve society" Because of the influence of my mother
and father, I guess I always had a deep urge to serve humanity,
but I didn't start out with an interest to enter the ministry. I
thought I could probably do it better as a lawyer or doctor. One
of my closest friends at Morehouse, Walter McCall, was clear about
his intention of going into the ministry, but I was slow to make
up my mind. I did serve as assistant to my father for six months.
I revolted, too,
against the emotionalism of much Negro religion, the shouting and
stamping. I didn't understand it, and it embarrassed me. I often
say that if we, as a people, had as much religion in our hearts
and souls as we have in our legs and feet, we could change the world. I had seen that most Negro ministers were unlettered, not trained in seminaries, and that gave me pause. I had been brought up in the church and knew about religion, but I wondered whether it could serve as a vehicle to modern thinking, whether religion could be intellectually respectable as well as emotionally satisfying. This conflict continued
until I studied a course in Bible in which I came to see that behind
the legends and myths of the Book were many profound truths which
one could not escape. Two men- Dr. Mays, president of Morehouse
College and one of the great influences in my life, and Dr. George
Kelsey, a professor of philosophy and religion-made me stop and
think. Both were ministers, both deeply religious, and yet both
were learned men, aware of all the trends of modern thinking. I
could see in their lives the ideal of what I wanted a minister to
be. It was in my senior
year of college that I entered the ministry. I had felt the urge
to enter the ministry from my high school days, but accumulated
doubts had somewhat blocked the urge. Now it appeared again with
an inescapable drive. I felt a sense of responsibility which I could
not escape. I guess the influence of my father had a great deal to do with my going into the ministry. This is not to say that he ever spoke to me in terms of being a minister but that my admiration for him was the great moving factor. He set forth a noble example that I didn't mind following. I still feel the effects of the noble moral and ethical ideals that I grew up under. They have been real and precious to me, and even in moments of theological doubt I could never turn away from them. At the age of nineteen I finished college and was ready to enter seminary.
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